what goes in my mouth

i publicly announced on facebook that i have started weight watchers.

i'm not embarrassed about paying attention to what i put in my mouth (also my body), but i am embarrassed to call it a diet. maybe not embarrassed, but uncomfortable.

the good thing is, conveniently, the way i'm eating now is just exactly how i want to be eating, just now there's some structure to it.

i like this. i'm talking about food, and it's great.

ever since i was pregnant with gwendolyn and trying to ward off morning sickness, i've been fighting off the habit of eating all day long. i still have snacks (thank goodness), but now only 2, and i'm just more aware in general of the things that go in my mouth.

at first i felt a little bit hungry between meals and snacks, but i realize that WHAT i am eating is lasting longer and i'm feeling better. funny how this stuff comes back so quick, but now that i'm in such a different place, i'm ready for it.

i want this. my body feels happy. :D


seriously, amazing.

intentions

i will be honest, i'm a little bit uncomfortable even posting this. this very short list is not what i imagined my letter of intentions to be. i also can't help but feel that i've left off important items. maybe my entire list of inentions will slowly unveil in parts.

so anyhow, please send me good juju, and positive, supportive energy and thoughts.


the list:

i will spend more time this year working on my health. i will figure out a schedule that involves physical activity. i will eat food that nourishes my body and keep me energetic and alive. i will feel better, look better, have more energy, and feel better about my body.

i will work towards being more comfortable and long term self-sufficient financially. i don't feel like i need more money, although i could certainly find use for it, but i do want to be more organized with what i've got.

i will make a list of the outstanding tasks in my life. i will create a system to prioritize, set up a game plan, and keep track of the things i need to take care of, and then do them. now and in the future.



i don't like having to admit that i haven't got all my shit together. i'm even a little embarrassed by it. i don't feel like a failure, because there are many things that i do feel that i do right, but there are some things tugging me in different directions right now.

i can do this stuff, it will just take energy and discipline.

i have broken promises to myself... i can find or make time to do the things that are truly important.