how?

guilt is such a heavy, hurtful emotion to live with.

one could look at this tiny moment in time as such a small insignificant thing, but for some reason it's haunting me.

i know there is nothing i can do to "save" this little kitty (i lost that chance when i turned my back to her). if i see her, i'll swoop her up so fast and make up for the mistake i made.

but what do you do when you can't fix a mistake? how do you not torture yourself over and over again for it?

i notice myself peeking in every bush making "come here kitty kitty" noises the entire walk from my car to my house, to the garbage, even looking out the front door- just in case.

if i can't change the past, as much as it breaks my heart, how can i live with the present?