change always gets me

Today is Day One of covering reception. In fact, I can hardly even say "covering reception," since it is now my responsibility. I guess I'm a receptionist again.

I'm not entirely sure why this situation is setting me off balance, but it is, and although I keep saying I'm fine, I feel out of whack. There's so many reasons why I'm uncomfortable right now. Of course there is the obvious, of doing something new and not knowing what to expect, but then there's also the fact that although it's a different time and different place, to some extent, it's not new and I DO know what to expect.

The first welcome I received at my new desk was someone else's dirty ass coffee cup, water cup, and water bottle. (They could have taken care of that stuff themselves before they left), and then someone asking where the flowers were for the vase. They get delivered... they aren't here yet... not much I can do about it. Want me to go outside and pick some??

As much as I like human interaction, and as good as I'd SAY I am with customer service, my first morning as receptionist, it dawned on me that maybe I don't like dealing with people as much as I'd previously thought. This position is so superficial. People just walk by, in and out, and spout out general small talk as they go about their business, not necessarily even caring who is sitting here. I wonder how lonely it gets to be over time, even with the constant traffic.

This is my blog, so i could bitch about all the reasons I'm feeling crabby, but I know that really won't help the situation.

I'm going to chalk the main reason up to change in general. Something new, something unknown, a situation where I need to be open and accepting. I already said I'd do this, so there's no real reason to fuss. I can adapt fast, but I am still taking the time to acknowledge that I'm having a hard time. I already showed Alex, in not so many words, how excited I am, so I really have to check myself. I don't want to be Miss Bad Attitude sitting up here. GET IT TOGETHER, SISTER!

Time will tell how this will all play out. Too bad I have such a hard time with patience.

Until next time. xoxo