i can come through things and be okay. by things, i mean when situations change, dynamics thrown off, order of events altered, and physical changes of people, places, and things.
i have finally noticed that although i haven't any doubt about making it through these things, i do have apprehension and anxiety about not knowing where all this "shit" is going to land (after hitting the fan.)
i don't even necessarily believe these (or most other) changes are bad. i ALWAYS end up in a better place when there's an upheaval. it's the discomfort of the phoenix's fire that throws me off. i guess it just seems that there's a place i go in my head that is unique from all the others. it's a different thought process, a shift in what i'm used to.
i'm not afraid of failing. i know i can do this.
i'm not afraid of opinions. i have genuine intent, and a pure heart.
i'm can keep my calm..... with lots of deep breaths and positive thoughts. (mental image: do NOT be the upside duck paddling chaotically).
it's just change. not sure why it freaks me out............................ but it does.
i can accept each moment for what it's worth. there's just a lot going on and it overwhelms me sometimes.
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